Sunday, June 17, 2012

What Happen If?

What happens when occurrences in your life, one after the other, do nothing but confirm, more and more, that you were, are, and in fact always will be, an outsider. What's worse, is when you find out that you're on this side of the glass window, somehow still intact but probably on the verge of shattering, only because of your naivety and sheer innocence. 


Or maybe it's just a skill you acquired somewhere along the way, of blindfolding yourself with an invisible emotion every time you thought something was coming at you, that didn't quite fit, or the time for which wasn't quite right, or it wasn't quite as bearable as it should have been. Quite. Quite foolish you'd have to be. 

When you're in love, you're supposed to be a fool. Why? Because it isn't reality. It's a fantasy. One that was created as per your own convenience, and composed of your little, fragmented obsessions at the time. But nobody ever talks about how foolish, and vile life itself can be. How foolish you could be while undergoing the process of 'growing up.' But sometimes the process stagnates. And you feel like you'll never learn. Like how many times could you possibly suffer, until the suffering teaches you a lesson. Like how much could you possibly endure, until the last vein connecting your heart to your brain is yanked out. Limitless.

I'd stay a little while longer, if only I could be assured that this time, or the next time, or the one after that, will not end in tears and severe reconciliation of not just the surface skimming factors, but of the soul. I'd stay a little while longer, if only the truth was told to my face, and with a trust I couldn't look away from. 

It's like it was said in one of my most favorite movies, of all time. Every time we look back at something we're having a hard time recuperating from, we're probably only looking at the good stuff. The next time you look, look a bit more carefully. 

As I said, I'd stay a little while longer. But that's only if I thought there was something more this place had to offer me. If only it hadn't taken and given to me everything that could have possibly been taken or given. If only my life could turn out the way it had to in the duration of my favorite movie, not necessarily with the same script. If only I could sit here all day, not bother about frivolities that take up my vision, touch and taste, and watch this movie, some brain waves intact. Some nourishment intact. And then... Summer. And soon. Autumn. Throw in a certain Monsoon will you. 

"The scars of your love remind me of us 
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all 
The scars of your love they leave me breathless 
I can’t help feeling..."- Adele


  1. Thanks for the Sunday thoughts. You definitely give us a lot to think on..on several levels. Love the Adele quote too.

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  9. Bacana o post, cicatrizes do amor são muito ruins... Bjoooooooo

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  12. I think that we have one life to cherish and that one life is as good as it gets. The main goal is to make it count, to live it as you wish, because it's just that and then puff we go away! And so with that in mind, I think people shouldn't take everything so serious, after all everything is an illusion, not only love, but our whole surroundings, everything is crooked by our perceptions.
    BTW being an outsider isn't always a bad thing, I love being an outsider :D

  13. yes..i can definitely say i am an outsider, however that's why there's the internet! to share what you love to other people and just be yourself! :)

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  27. Nice post, I think everyone is at some point or to some extend outsider, because if we all thought alike and do the same we would not be living in such a fast changing environment.:)

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