Shiver

I had a dream I stood beneath an Orange Sky : Alexi Murdoch Now there's no room for negotiation and none for personally viable imagery. There's neither scope nor time for settlements. What you have now is what you'll hold forever and I wish I could say that you were a part of my scavenged dossier but I've sifted and even hunted in my last few bargained hours, but I found nothing. It's like you never existed. Just as well. 

Give me a lie, and I'll live it. Give me a robe and a fancy hat, and I'll don it. Give me a piece of paper and blood instead of ink, and I'll scribe it. Give me frivolity and I'll find a way to conjure short-lived beauty, peace and purity. Give me a pounding heart, and I'll pretend like I never heard it. 

 

This is us, old with no recourse to the past. What we have now is all we'll ever have. If you look at it through many rose tints you'd find it perfect and that's the best way to look at it. But if you dare lighten the shades... 

 

You find one place that you hope will let you forget and forgive and forgo. But if you carry all your baggage on your arm, up-sliding into your heart, seeping into your nervous system, and igniting dangerous cells, you can't expect even paradise to set you free. I've seen heaven and I've seen hell and I've seen them simultaneously. The worst part of not having a time lag between witnessing the two, is finding each equally mesmerizing and tempting. The two feelings rendering you unfit for either. When you get sucked into a roller-coaster ride of promise and hope and dejection and failure, you start enjoying the feeling of each. The loss that comes after the highs and the euphoria after the lows. 

 

All you had to do was ask. But you wouldn't. All I had to do was tell you. But I didn't. All that ever needed to be done, was untying the cruel knots that fate decided to put in the ropes that at some point would tow us back to each other. Maybe they're still not bad enough. Maybe 10 years later. Maybe not. I hate not knowing. But knowing would make me God. 

 

You're not mine. But I'm yours. And if that's not cruel, what is?

Life – The Way I See it !

What I am going to share with you all is my own learning of life which I have personally experienced, learned, read, visualized or maybe just imagined and that’s all my thoughts cumulatively and collectively bundled up in a single piece of write up.

What I have learnt from my life:

• Life is sometimes cruel but it is not intolerable always 
• One day or the other, everyone is going to hurt you but you have to decide what’s more important the issue or the relation.
• To avoid jealousy, compete with your own self

As beautifully said by Denis Waitley:

“The most splendid achievement of all is the constant striving to surpass yourself and to be worthy of your own approval”

• Competition (jealousy) and friendship can’t go hand in hand 
• Live your best moments with your family and with your friends 
• Listening to someone’s problems might not lessen it but it surely lessens the pain
• Spending some time with children will give you eternal happiness, the stupidity, the innocence and the charm when a child holds your hand … these are the moments of Life…. Live them !
• Start Living…Stop Complaining…Lil things around U give lil happiness but guess what…those all LIL Happiness Collectively makes your day Worthwhile!!! Enjoy little things happening around u and turn your ANOTHER Ordinary day into JUST another Enjoyable day from Now ON 
• I have learned to care people too much, not because I expect them to care about me in return but because I know the Pain of being Ignored !
• Ups and downs are the flavor of Life…. just look closer at your heartbeat (ECG)…..and you will that they show that you are ALIVE !!!…. the day they become straight or smooth …..is the day your life ends !!!
• Going with the flow sometimes work for you but there are times when you feel that the flow was not fast enough to wash away your past !!!
• Love is nothing but a blindfold, while you are being tied with it, U feel U have become blind in real…you can’t see the rights and wrongs happening around U !!! but suddenly an accident gets the blindfold down and you realize that neither were U blind nor was your every step/decision right !!!
• Forgive others Smilingly….. it not only gives comfort to other person but also relieves your tension to extreme !!!
• The bitterest fact life taught me is….. The number of People who are against U will always be more than the number of People who appreciates U 
• Always Be Yourself….Because the People that matter won’t mind…and the People who mind….. Don’t Matter !!!
• Life is already very Complicated……….. Do not make it more complex by fighting with your friends 
• Life means to struggle…better struggle with a smiling face …… to shrug off all the tensions rather then … frowning n getting irritated to increase the frustration
• U don’t really understand the value of your closed ones … Until…… either U r deeply hurt by them …. or they are going away
• If Luv is the best feeling in the world…. then I guess….. Friendship is the BESTEST 
• There’s only one relation in the world……. that is of MOM n a Child !!! Everything else is just a mere compromise….. dependency or sometimes necessity for the time being
• Its never to late to accept your mistake and repentance,and ALLAH will always forgive !!!
• Stop Complaining …. There are Millions of People who are Less Privileged then U … Be Grateful to ALLAH … ALWAYS

What I have learnt from my life:

Tomorrow’s Life too Late…… Forgive today !

Tomorrow’s Life too Late…… Appreciate today !

Tomorrow’s Life too Late…… Make Someone smile today  !

Tomorrow’s Life too Late…… Make others feel valued and Luved today  !

Tomorrow’s Life too Late…… Love today !

and Most Importantly Tomorrow’s Life too Late…… LIVE Today !!!

This is my life as I see it, I feel it and I am living it. I am very grateful to ALLAH for everything and I am also thankful to everyone who make my life worth living , Love you all !!!

I will keep updating this particular blog, since Life is all about continuous learning !!!

Things change, People change

I’ve learned that things change, people change, and it doesn’t mean you forget the past or try to cover it up;it simply means that you move on and treasure the memories. Letting go doesn’t mean giving up. it means accepting that somethings weren’t meant to be.

 

Sometimes, I feel like couldn’t let the hurt go, I will thinking about it over and over, this makes me tired.

Now, I know that The best thing to do is to forgive. By forgive the one who hurt you, you release yourself from being held captive to the pain, anger,  bitterness, and from being a slave to that situation. Forgiving the other person allows you to move on. In no way does forgiving makes what they did right or  diminishes the wrong of the other. It simply releases you from the pain and anguish associated to the situation. forgiveness
 

I will try to remember the most important part of healing in NOT revenge, NOT seeing the other person hurt, NOT getting an apology, but to get healing for MYSELF so that I can build better relationships and not make the same mistakes again.breaking heart.

The easiest way to maintain the smile on your face

 "THE EASIEST WAY TO MAINTAIN THAT SMILE ON YOUR FACE!!!"

Smile is a thing that will for sure be returned to you by the person who receives it.It's the best way to brighten up anyone's day{even the ones who have issues with}.Many times while speaking to people they question me so as to how i keep smiling at people who hate me.lolzzz.

Well, I just smile and ignore the question maybe because i never knew the answer myself but i guess its time i reveal the secret that always lay in my heart. As a really small kid my mother always told me bed time stories and about the fairies who always forgave the "BAD" witches....:P... The fact whether you believe or not is that the more you forgive people the more happy you stay.I know that sounds like totally awkward but its true.

Forgiving isn't easy but when you really learn the art of forgiving you'll realize you are happier than ever. Its a fact that many people realize early in life and some people take forever to realize it but everyone does realize it.

The question now arises is that how do you forgive a person who has cheated on you, ditched you, bitched about you or hurt you in any way or how can you forgive your bf or gf whom you loved wit your whole heart and they turned out to be proper jerks.The answer lies in your own thoughts.Think about a time when you too have been mean to someone and everyone at some point as has been guilty of doing something that may have hurt another person. You may not have hurt that person in the same way but remember this earth is round and nothing can fall off it. And what goes around will surely come back  to  bite you.

Once u realize this you'll realize it's best to forgive  the person who hurt you because the earliest who forgive that person the earlier you will be able to overcome that pain.

My life has also been full of ups and downs but what still keeps me going is that deep in my heart i know that the person who hurt me will realize it sooner or la8r and feel guilty.

And one fact you always need to remember is that no matter what, a person cannot live with guilt and when a person realizes you forgave him or her for what they did they just feel more guilty so u see its a 2 sided win.I  hope you realize the beauty of forgiveness and learn it as soon as you can..

"Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong, The weak can never forgive"