Reality and Spirit

I like writing, and all of my writing is from the bottom of my heart. I write because I want to keep track record of my life and my thought. Therefore, my writing has intimate relationship with my life, my thought and every friend who runs into my life. Almost all the friends who come to my life and my inner world appear on my writing. 

However, my writing seldom gets attention from my friends. Few friends will know about them. Maybe that’s why I can write everything I want to write. Before I refused　to reveal any of my writing to my familiar persons who are around me, because there are too much inner secret from my heart. I have no courage to anatomy myself before others. If so I will lose the feeling of safety. 

Gradually I no longer refuse the friends to read my articles. However, I am still inactive to reveal my writing to my friends. If someone find them by himself, pay attention to them and read them silently, I will appreciate him from the bottom of my heart, because that means he cares about me and my life. However, I hate everybody ask me any personal questions about my writing. The questions like “ Who is the girl you mention in your article? Who is your first love? “ These are so disgustful questions that make you revolt against. The information in my writing is so personal and immanent that it’s unfit to discuss. You can read them silently, and from my writing you will know something about me. You can touch my heart from my writing. You can understand another world about me and you’d better be moved by my writing. However, you can’t ask any questions, although you have so many questions to ask, although your curiosity is inspired, although you want to know more about details. If you want to get the answers, you can read between in lines with your heart, you can guess and finally maybe you can never get clear answers. Anyway, you can’t disturb me by those disgustful questions.

For me, there is two world--------reality and spirit. These two worlds go along with each other and affect each other. My spirit lead my reality and finally is influenced by my reality at the same time. However, in some way they are independent. In reality, I work, strive for money, just because money is the first important factor to make my life happy. However, in my spirit I pursue something has nothing to do with money but priceless, such as love, freedom and interest. In reality, I need a relaxing life. I like talking with friends in a free and humorous way, because I feel easy and happy to live in this way. By contrast, in my spirit world I often think about the serious life philosophy, such as the attitude to life, the distillation of love, the sentiment about life. Generally speaking, my reality is live and busy full of persons coming and going. In contrast, my spirit world is quiet, alone and just belongs to myself. Every day I need time to spend along, doing something I like, such as reading and writing. I always keep a good habit of reading before sleep. Every night I lie in the bed with a comfortable posture, and then turn on the books I like, at that time my spirit is purified. In this way I get a wonderful soul consolation. In my reality I seem to be an extrovert. I can make friends with different people and get a lot of friends. I can be active in different occasions. However, only I know that I am introvert when I face to myself only. I pay attention to my inner voice and pursue inner world. However, I share my heart and soul with few friends in my reality, because I think it’s not fit to mix my two worlds. In my writing, there is a real me, showing up my spirit and soul, but few friends in my reality can share my writing. However, I never feel lonely, because I have so many strange readers, who can understand me, appreciate my writing and keep encouraging me.

It’s the reality and spirit which go along each other make my life happy, full and perfect.

Cyber Relationship

Almost all the people think that the internet relationship is unrealistic. They think that it’s impossible for them to have feeling for each other since they haven’t met each other or got together with each other. However, when the other day I discussed this topic with my friend, we both think that the internet relationship can be real, sincere and forever. It has nothing different from other relationships in the reality. Of course, the basic of this relationship is that we don’t have any evil purpose to each other or anything deceive.

Because of the dream of being postgraduate, I met some friends online. For the same dream, we chatted happily. In my opinion, they have nothing different from other friends I meet in reality. I treat them good, sincere and real. I never enclose any information about me. I show a real myself before them, even more real in the reality. Because of the distance, you often can discuss the topic which can touch your heart. Moreover, there is always something same deep in our heart or in the pursuit of soul. Therefore, it’s easy for us to get along with each other well. In my experience, nobody deceive me on purpose.

We have feeling for each other because we know each other. We know each other because we communicate. Chatting on Facebook or chatting by messages or chatting on phone is only a kind of the way of communication in this modern society. In reality, we often fall in love with someone at the sight we see her, especially in the adolescence period. At that time, it’s common that we fall in love with some boy or girl deep in heart even though we never talk to each other. Comparing these two kinds of emotion, I think the cyber love is more reliant and more real. In the latter one, we love just because of his appearance or a kind of imagination inner your heart. You know nothing about him or her. It’s often said that if you have chance to talk with her or get together with her, you will feel disappointing and then you will lose those ever feeling. In contrast, you fall in cyber love because you know something deep in her character, and you are crush to this kind of character.

Because of the aim of post graduation exam, I met her online. We ever chatted a lot. I always have a good feeling for her. And gradually we became a lover. If considering it as a true love, this is my first love, my first love happening between two persons. However, when meet each other face to face, we must end our relationship. But I never think the failure of our relationship is because it’s a cyber love. In fact, it has nothing to do with its kind. If we are a lover met in reality, we also have to end our relationship, because he offends the authentic essence of the love royalty and sincerity.

The society is filled up with rushing persons and rushing materials. You can know someone only by a click of the key, and it’s probable that he or she disappears one second later. Even in our daily reality life, It’s common that people run to a city to another. It’s difficult for us to get together with each other for a long time and know each other deeply. Chatting online or by phone are our important tool of communication. Therefore, just take cyber relationship ease.

The essence of a authentic friendship or love is sincerity, commonness, and respect. Keep this belief in out mind, we will get authentic eternal valuable friendship and love, no matter when, where, how we meet and know each other.

Still Miss You

For a long time I seldom get together with her. At first I felt very uneasy. Then I felt that I used to it.  I seem to forget her gradually. At least, I seldom feel the worry and care for her. I don’t know whether this choice is reasonable or unwise.Sometimes I will think about her, and the enjoyment and happiness when we get together.It’s a pity that I lose her forever. 

I don't know whether she notices or cares about it. Maybe I am just one of her good friends. The other day Melody said to me that no woman will treat you good without purpose.  So, does she treat me more special than other boys? I am not sure. 

I seem to be not a sensitive guy who notices others’ attitude to me.  I just know clearly that when I am with her my heart is full of joy and happiness. No matter what is the real matter, it’s clear that we are far from each other.

It’s said that persons are like hedgehogs in need of warmness. If we are too far away, we can’t get warmness from each other. If we are too close, the thorns over our body will hurt each other. Therefore, the perfect distance between persons is neither too far way nor too close. We should care for, believe and contain each other, and above all, we should leave each other a personal time and space.

It’s strange how a somewhat amazing day (filled with talks, rumbles, jokes and laughter with her) could end so disappointingly. but right now, it feels somewhat better, for which i’m glad thought about this speedy friendship, about how it had progressed ever since day 1, when i first sat beside her in the library all I know is, our barely two-months neutral friendship can never compete with a 3 years long relationship.

I will take this friendship lightly, I will just enjoy the company, the advices,   the jokes easily. just enjoy and be neutral.  I am a bright guy who knows clearly about my advantages and weakness. But it’s difficult for me to conquer my weakness. Who can help me and who can tell me what I can do? just walk away

A Walk to Remember

While I was browsing our DVD collection last night, I found this very lovely movie of all time. I think that this is one of the best movies for me. Watching it for 4 times, it clearly had an impact in my heart.

A Walk To Remember movie is really something to remember. I like how it was made and the scenes deeply touched me. It gave an inspiring and hopeful feelings to its viewers. The perfect direction and production together with the chosen casts to star in this movie is something to recognize. I remember when I first watched this movie, I can't help but reminisce all the scenes in my mind. I was pre-occupied with the scenes that deeply touched me. I thought that I was alone, but my friends were looking so touched as well.

This dramatic love story is excellent, all because of its lessons. I love how the writers and producers thought of integrating Bible lessons in it. Because, I believe, that this served as a reminder for young couples to put Christ in the middle of the relationship and through that, miracles really do happen.

Sadness

 Sometimes the toughest thing about feelings is sharing them with others. Sharing your feelings helps you when your feelings are good and when they aren’t so good. Sharing also helps you to get closer to people you care about and who care about you. When people talk about feelings, they sometimes use the word "emotions."  

 The way a person feels inside is important. It can be really hard not to tell anyone that you’re feeling sad, worried, or upset. Then, it’s just you and these bad feelings. If you keep feelings locked inside, it can even make you feel sick! 

Feeling down? Got the blues? You’re not alone. Everyone gets sad. Yes, everyone you’ve ever met. 

When you’re in a sad mood, it may feel like it will last forever, but usually feelings of sadness don’t last very long — a few hours or maybe a day or two. A deeper, more intense kind of sadness that lasts a lot longer is called depression  Sadness is a feeling — it’s one of the many normal human emotions, or moods, we all have. Sadness is the emotion people feel when they’ve lost something important, or when they have been disappointed about something, or when something sad has happened to them or to someone else. When they’re lonely, people often feel sad.

When you’re sad, the world may seem dark and unfriendly. You might feel like you have nothing to look forward to. The hurt deep inside may crush your usually good mood.  

Most of the time, sadness is because of a loss or separation, a difficult change or disappointment about something, or relationship problems.  

Try to open your heart to the person who you trust,  There is always somebody to talk to when you are sad or if you are depressed — somebody who can help.